Trusting Someone Trustworthy

As this year is coming to a close, I’ve been reflecting on how different my life looks on the last day of the year from how it looked on the first day of the year. On January 1, I was still at my Human Resources job, living in a studio in the woods in the Santa Cruz mountains. On December 31, I’m sitting typing this blog post in my dorm room. I’ve finished my first semester of studies for my Master’s of Divinity degree. Although the dorm is almost entirely devoid of students other than me right now, normally I’m surrounded by other students in dorm life, in classes, and in the library, reflecting the spiritual community I’ve so cherished and enjoyed here. 

Today as I’ve been pondering how the last day of this year is so different from the first day of this year, I’ve been recalling how I felt the same about 2010, the year I entered the Peace Corps. At the beginning of that year, I was still at the lawyer job I’d held for nearly eight years by that point, and I was still living in an apartment in San Francisco. On the last day of that year, I moved into my own apartment in the town in the Sahara Desert where I lived and served for nearly two years as a Peace Corps Volunteer. While I ended that year an ocean and a continent away from where I began it, still I feel that this year shares important similarities with that year. 


In addition to each year ending much different than it had begun, in each case God provided abundantly for me. There I moved into an apartment fully furnished with the conveniences accumulated by previous Peace Corps Volunteers. Here so many of my needs are provided for me. Classes, mentoring, housing, and much food have all been given to me. In situation after situation, God keeps making far more than sufficient provision for my needs. 


God provides, and God keeps providing. I keep seeing it with my own eyes. In a sense I can say that I’ve been taking leaps of faith into the unknown, but I feel that would be inaccurate. Faith is evidence of things not seen, but I’ve seen how God keeps providing for me. For that reason, I feel like I’m not taking leaps of faith. If you’ve experienced it, you know what I mean. To put it a different way, it’s easy to trust when you’re trusting Someone trustworthy. 

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