Can't You See

Two days ago, on Friday morning, I arrived here at St John's University in Collegeville, Minnesota. Since then I've been unpacking and settling in here. 

I've been feeling so fortunate to be here, meeting returning students here at the graduate level School of Theology, as well as meeting other students like me, who are beginning the Master's of Divinity program. I'm excited about sharing spiritual community with them, being strengthened together on our spiritual journeys, and learning from our attentive, warm and caring professors and other mentors I've been meeting. I'm also very grateful for the scholarship I've been awarded, and the free housing I've been enjoying in the dorm here on campus. I've also been thankful for the kitchens here in the dorm where we can prepare our meals, and for the laundry machines here on the floor where I live. 

This morning I attended Sunday Mass at the Abbey Church here on campus.  Given how my needs are so well met here, during the opening hymn at Mass this morning, I was so overwhelmed with gratitude that I began crying with overflowing joy when we sang, "Can you not see how God has ordained all that you need?"

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